Okay, the numbers are in and I have a goal. Again.
I have been on a double goal journey for the past 5 years. I started out at age 39, in 2011, weighing in at 180 pounds with a 29.7% body mass index (BMI). I had gained 40 pounds over the course of the previous 5 years eating my way through the grief of losing my mother in 2006. This prompted me to join the gym post haste. My doctor had said I was .03% away from being considered obese by his charts and graphs. I didn’t look, or feel obese. At least what I thought was obese but hey, if the doctor says it…….
My #1 goal, of course, was to lose the weight, and get to my doctors recommended body weight for my height. 132.5 pounds for a 5′ 6 1/2″ height as a woman. That meant losing 47.5 pounds!
Over the course of one year I did it. I hit my goal in September of 2012. I remember the exact day, and where I was. On vacation in Jackson Hole Wyoming with my dear friend Cathy. I did it by reducing what I ate, and drinking lots of water. Oh, and add in going to the gym 3 times per week with my husband, cardio- cardio-cardio, and interval walking/running through my neighborhood on the days we didn’t go to the gym. Cardio 5 days a week, every week, rain or shine.
I also remember getting home from vacation and looking in the mirror realizing that I looked ridiculous. I looked like a walking skeleton. I had gone from a size 14 to a size 2, my doctor was happy, but I was not. I lost ALL of the boobs that I had, and that lead me to wear sports bras 24 hours a day so I didn’t have to look at what was left…… I was boney, and did not feel attractive at all. I started hinting around to my husband that breast implants were really very affordable……
Why the heck can’t I just be happy?
Then one day I found a meme that changed everything for me. It perfectly described WHY I was feeling unhappy, and unattractive even though I was the elusive and highly sought after perfect weight…..”132.5″ pounds…
I did not like the way I looked because I was skinny, but NOT fit. In order to be fit I needed to add in muscle. Muscle would fill out my body making it look even better.
Enter goal #2. Build muscle.
I told myself not to freak out because my body weight was going to go up (muscle weighs 5 times more than fat). I had lived so long weighing myself everyday and obsessing over that one number…. this was going to be hard. I just needed to change my mindset.
Then I blew my knee out during a Zumba class. Enter one knee surgery, and being told that it is highly recommended that I do NOT run again, do squats, do lunges….. NO…. That was half of my stay skinny strategy. I was about to enter my first 5K…..
Fast forward to 2016.
Hello 160 pounds. Yup, 27.5 pounds up from my goal weight in 2006. BUT, it’s different now. I still do cardio, just on an elliptical now. My thrice weekly workout sessions now consist of 75% weight lifting, and 25% cardio. Big difference from 100% cardio.
I now have muscles, and boobs, and another goal.
At 160 pounds, and 19.5% body fat, according to http://www.BrainyWeightLoss.com, I am on the “Lean (Low)” side of my body fat percentage.
At 44 years old the American Council on Exercise tells me that I am in their “Athletes” category. BUT I still cannot really see the muscles I work so hard for…..
So, the goal is to go from 19.5% body fat to 14%. That 8.8 pounds of body fat. At least by my math…
Goal day is June 29th, 2016. 8 weeks from today, and 8.8 pounds of body fat to go….
I’ll let you know what happens…